Okay, I'm going to start writing...and say that I really don't know where I'm going with this. I'm just going to write. I think I cannot sleep because I did not eat enough today. :P I kind of forgot...I wasn't hungry and now I am. But what can you get at nearly midnight...I don't feel like going out.

I feel a little bit ashamed right now...just thinking about how limited my perspective on life can be. I really limit the world to what I know, even if in my knowledge I acknowledge how much there is I do not know. But somehow it seems like I don't take the implications of my acknowledgment into consideration. The world is so big, so vast, people so complex, their experiences so varied. Just think - within one day, how many different situations one person meets...take a composite of a year's worth of those situations, then twenty years' worth if the person is twenty, plus the number of years above twenty if they are older than twenty...

Seriously.

I take so much in and react so much via intuition. The problem with this is that you know so much and you know nothing at all. Maybe I need to learn to acknowledge intuition.

Maybe the hard thing about intuition is that it is not very bounded. It is easy to get overwhelmed...or maybe it has to do with being an "open" person, like on the "OCEAN" personality test...how it is hard to acknowledge how vast things really are because just the small amount you do know for sure is already enough to overwhelm you.

Does that make sense? It makes a lot of sense to me.

Goodness - there are so many thoughts floating around my head that really affect my life but that I never take the time to acknowledge...I live my life by them, but I don't always realize it - because they are such givens to me.

I think I have had enough excitement for one day...so many different conversations, all meaningful. It is wonderful to interact with people...but it always gets me a little overexcited - you realize...there is so much to life.

Maybe that is part of what it means to be made in the image of God (it hit me today that falling short of the image of God is falling short of holiness...holiness is glorious!) - that is why we must interact with people. Because there is that boundlessness about people. Inside every person is a universe - I have said this many times...but truly - people reflect God in their diversity, their limitlessness - every person has these qualities to them.

Maybe some people just want to see more of the world, of the universe. Well, you have not if you have not talked to people...(of course, there are the closed ones...closed-minded people - who might actually shut you in more)...

This is getting ridiculous. I think maybe the thing I started taking for my mood isn't working...or is working too well. I'm not necessarily excited about anything in particular or unsettled but I can't calm down...and it is frustrating. There must be some sort of balance...

But seriously - there is something about going out and seeing the world, meeting people, doing things...that is very meaningful.