i guess sometimes you cannot hurry life...much as you want to have more input on truth and how things really are...you just have to keep living the day-to-day in order for meaning to unroll.

If you can dream--and not make dreams your master;
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same...

- Rudyard Kipling