loss

There are many ways to experience loss. Sometimes...something doesn't have to disappear for you to experience loss. Sometimes loss is just finding out it wasn't there in the first place, or that what was wasn't what you thought it was.

There is a Thai pop song called "The One Thing That's Left." In the MV, a girl falls down the stairs and hits her head and contracts amnesia (classic MV melodrama). Her boyfriend is left with grief and sorrow over all the things that he didn't say to her before that happened...all the appreciation he never showed, all the times he took her for granted or paid more attention to his work than her notes or the orange juice she made for him each day. The fact is, she can't remember how they used to love each other.

I think this is a great song. I love playing it on the piano. It's definitely a piano song.

Verse 1:
"In the past I never noticed
What I should have done and didn't
I didn't understand your heart

I never used to listen
I did everything to drive you far away from me
And I only understood once I lost you"

The chorus goes something like this (and he sings it so perfectly):

"The one thing that's left...is my empty life.
Where there once was us, two have disappeared
I ask you to listen...I realized too late
I want to tell you so you can hear
Even if it's too late
...I still love you"

Verse 2:
"The opportunities I messed up
Everything that you shed tears over
Today I can understand well.

If there was a way
To help you understand, even for a second
I would give up everything so that you wouldn't leave..."

I really like this song.

English can't capture all the nuances of meaning held in each Thai phrase. [sigh]